Interesting! I have had a couple of moments I felt were "beyond" my understanding, but were increasingly intense and meaningful.
1. The very first (and only) time I experienced Reiki, I had a sort of "vision" where I was standing on one side of a spring. On the other side, a woman dressed in white veils flowing in the wind was standing in a luscious decor of green grass and orchard. I could see only her back, not her face, but I wanted to join her there. Then, the wind, the sun, the air itself seemed to traverse her, she became part of it, as if she became transparent and herself and her veils swayed by the elements around her. It was very intense.
2. I used to work with people with AIDS, at a time (the mid 1990's) when AIDS was a fatal disease. During that time, I witnessed many death of young men, and a few women. Almost every week we had one or two of our clients death. Some of them had "celebration of life" prior to their death, usually within 1 week to a couple of days before they closed their eyes. Those celebrations were always very intense and a mixture of joy and sadness. . . usually no regrets. In one of those gathering, a gay man with AIDS put his arms around my shoulder in an act of solidarity, but very suddenly removed it. . .as if he had been burned. He looked at me stunned, and almost frightened and told me that, indeed, he had felt extreme heat when he touched me. It surprised me, but I didn't think much about it. . .until the same kind of encounter happened again twice, and always with people with AIDS. Once it was simply shaking hands. . . and I was told my hand was burning. ..although I didn't feel any unusual heat.
3. During my fight with breast cancer, while I was unsure whether I would survive or not, I woke up in the middle of the night in my bed, my husband sleeping next to me. I opened my eyes with the feeling someone was staring at me, and in front of me was an old woman(older I guess, as I was 46 at that time, and the woman might have been my current age between 65 and 75) bowing over me. . .and I screamed in fright! A chilling scream that obviously woke up my husband. The "woman" had disappeared, and I was left with a feeling of regret, a knowledge that that "woman" didn't want me any arm but, on the contrary, was a loving, friendly shadow, taking care of me, and for days I felt so sorry that I screamed instead of communicating with "her!"
Yes.. .I may be slightly crazy! But I call all those "encounters" my diamonds! You see, I am a very big "diamond" collectors. I have a corner of my consciousness filled with those "special moments" where I felt I was given a glimpse of (for lack of better word!) heaven.
...I seriously doubt you want to know what I'm talking about....
