Well, as a general rule I don't believe everything I have read in the bible. The portrayal of God in it is something I really have a hard time swallowing especially in the old testament. This God condemns people, kills people floods the earth then stands around saying it was for the good of man kind. I don't buy it, no the God I know of is a loving and forgiving God who unlike man can forgive a person their faults if they as for forgiveness, and not pass judgment. This is the God I was taught about yet that God in the old Testament is nothing like this and there are times when I wonder is this really thee portrayal of God we want to bring forth. Maybe it has to do with the readings of the bible wanting to put fear into people , but for me these stories just kind of have me questioning the fact that if God is a loving and forgiving God, why is he doing these things. So, I tend to have a hard time with the old testament of the bible in general, mainly for the portrayal of God. I don't think that all that is in the bible is based on actual truth.
I wrote this a while back.. but it sums up how I feel..
Why don’t we just tell the truth..?
I’m tired of telling people how to be good people. When I do it, I feel like I’m preying on those Christians with low self-esteem who just want to do the right thing and are berated for inevitably failing. When I tell them how to do the right thing in the right way, I’m just preaching the law to those in need of grace, they need GRACE and I’m giving the LAW . Sometimes I feel like I’m just encouraging the lie that if people get their acts together, God might throw some acceptance their way.
In that scenario--at best--I'm a self-help guru, not a man of god. When we become exclusively obsessed with morality and getting better, we become self-proclaimed culture warriors and my words just becomes a post from which I throw out weekly gripes at the audience: Too much side-boob on television, a gay guy sold me my coffee, kids these days! Did you see what Jeff did, those guys were holding hands, Gays are killing the family.. No O THEIR NOT , DIVORCE IS.. Yada yada yada..
I heard that kind of thing a lot over the years from other Christians, and all it did was make me neurotic. I know now that kind of message isn't the only game in town, but some don't. And they still listen, maybe hoping for a scrap of truth among all the worthless words to get them through the week, but people mostly just wander away, shaking their heads.
I don't blame us. Religion can suck.
I left that space in-between the paragraph for my fellow Christians to lecture me. Tell me how I’m self-centered, negative and don’t understand what it means to be a real Christian, and that it’s not about me, it’s about Jesus. All that’s true, and I know it. But it doesn’t mean I’m wrong about this..
Some of you draw God in very straight lines when he’s made of the living water no container can hold.
Me, personally? I don’t need constant lectures, I need the wild, untamed love of Christ. I need the pastor to have the look of fear one has in their eyes when working with old ammunition that may well explode at any moment. I need brothers and sisters who aren’t afraid to dance from joy, even if it means missing a step or two. I need a family, not an accountability group.
Keep your shame and manipulation while you're at it.. Just give me Jesus.
So often, we’ve had the opportunity to see this amazing gift of God’s grace—Jesus—and we choose instead to share messages of judgment and fear. I’m tired of judging and being judged. I'm tired of telling people how I think they might get better in five easy steps. I just want to tell you the Truth—
AND JESUS SAID THAT WAS HIM…. No more no less... Thanks for reading..