I understand that you feel you have searched for proof of God and have been disappointed. You're not the first to feel that way, and to feel the need to rationalize your decision to believe that because you can't see him, and that you searched for him but didn't find him, that there is no God. That's your choice. It doesn't mean that therefore the entire universe is now rearranged to fit your new decision. Otherwise, every time you change your mind, the universe rearranges itself again to fit the new paradigm. That could be hard on the rest of us.
Instead, a reasonable person allows for others to believe however they wish, and considers new evidence to determine if/how this new evidence or information fits into the framework of facts already established. I am not entirely convinced that you are interested in learning new evidence or information. It seems as if your sole intent is to discredit any opinion or belief that does not agree or support your own. Please, tell me if I have come to the wrong conclusion.
When Jehovah God created man, he told them to become fruitful and fill the earth and subdue it. His purpose was for the entire earth to become a garden-like paradise, in which perfect humans could enjoy endless life. It was never meant for humans to rule others, to treat them as slaves or to kill each other. When the original pair chose to disobey God, they set in motion all of the miserable human history we have talked about and are still seeing today.
However, if we were to say that Jehovah is not capable of finding a way to complete his purpose for the earth, that would be saying that humans are able to thwart or prevent his purposes from being realized. That is not the case. Immediately after Adam and Eve made their choice, Jehovah set in motion his plan to correct the situation. (Genesis 3:15) He arranged for the Bible to be preserved for thousands of years (in spite of numerous attempts to discredit and destroy it), he planned a government ruled by his Son that would not only make the earth into the paradise he'd originally planned, but that would undo all of the human suffering experienced by people throughout mankind's history.
Would there be those who do not want to be a part of that bright future? Yes.
Would there be those who try to convince others that it is not real? Yes.
Does the Bible explain why we are here, what is our purpose, why we suffer, how God will fix it, and how we can cope with our problems in the meantime? Yes. Yes it does.
For those who are really searching for answers, the Bible does that and more. I invite you to search for those answers at
www.jw.org. It is the most translated website in the world, with over 700 languages. Wikipedia doesn't even come close to that number, nor does the U.N. website. But Jehovah God wants people to know about him, and really, wouldn't you expect that if he really were the Creator, he would make sure that people have a way to know about him? Thank you for allowing me to let people know about this, DL. I hope you find what you're really searching for.